Monday, November 27, 2006

things to do...

I have come to the realization that school is almost over and I'm not nearly done with all my school work. It is overwhelming, but I know that everything will get done so I try not stress. I like starting up new semesters because that means I get to see all my friends again. Towards the end of the semester I get excited that school is almost out and I get a nice long break. When finals are finally over I breathe a sigh of relief. Then I realize I won't see very many of my friends for a while and start looking forward to the start of a new semester. My point is that I am never satisfied, I am always looking ahead instead of focusing on what is here and now.

It is not so easy to try to focus on the present because we are conditioned to think ahead. We sign up for classes well in advance, we plan for events weeks beforehand, we are always thinking about things to come and not things that are already here! I don't know how to stop this cycle, no matter how hard I try to think only about my immediate surroundings, I will always be 'forced' to assimilate to the norms of society. I must meet deadlines and that requires thinking ahead.

It is a good concept though, to always look forward.

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